My Dream Was Worth Fighting For
Dear Lovelies, my dream was worth fighting for. I just ripped off the bandaid on a cold Parisian winter’s day and took a huge step into a dream I have held close to my heart for years.
The above inspiration board was shared at the Get Published workshop I did in 2017 in Sydney. I was illustrating to the participants how I continue to reconnect to things that are important to me that I want to realise sometime in the future and how I physically make a board with those images on it to help me bring it to life.
You will see on my inspiration board that there is a vegetable garden, creativity, friends, cats, creative workshops, my family, me wandering down a set of stairs in a Greek village, hubby and me, beaches, simplicity, beauty, and photography.
There were days when I thought this vision would never happen. Sometimes life felt like it just kept throwing obstacles in my way and delays would crop up out of the blue. It is only with time and perspective when I look back that those obstacles were valuable healing pieces that needed attending to before I could get to the good stuff.
I never gave up, I knew this dream was worth fighting for, I held onto it in my heart and kept working towards it, one small step at a time. My husband and I wanted different things, he loves the big smoke and I am a country girl at heart who loves to get her hands dirty. We had so many discussions about where to move to that we even ended up on the therapist’s couch needing a third person to help us decide. We were sent off to do research, we had to do a creative project, and when I looked at mine (2019), it included Italy and many other things, a slight variation on the above.
Then Covid stormed through our lives and made me ask deeper questions and gave me insights. One of those was that I was no longer willing to wait for us to come to a decision. If we couldn’t decide then I was willing to start taking steps on my own and we would find a way to make it work as we went.
The imperfect plan. A chance arose to stay in my friend’s Greek village house last year for 3 months and I jumped at it. Nothing like a dose of reality to see if the dream stands up.
I found myself on my own in a Greek village and the women opened their doors and hearts to me and I was the happiest gal on the planet tending a swathe of cats who needed tender loving care. I rescued kittens and took them home, I swam, I created a photography project, I worked with my beautiful groups online and I adored hearing the goats’ bells tinkling as I puffed my way uphill to feed the cats in the morning, never tiring of the sight of the sea in the distance.
I fell in love with life, I could participate in things that were real (sometimes too real), I could contribute with my hands and heart and I loved being in Mother Nature every day. Watching the sun rise and set, swimming in the sea, and picking flowers from the garden brought me great peace.
When I left to go back to the city, I cried, sobbed like a child as I dragged my bags unceremoniously through the stone streets. Beautiful Bridget of @Venicebybridget once told me when she left Venice for New York a couple of years back that she vowed, ‘The next time I go to Venice, I’ll be moving there.’ I made the same promise to myself!
I cried when the plane took off, I felt the strong presence of my father and I knew without proof that this dream was worth fighting for.
Today I write this with a scented jar of jonquils on the table, cats sleeping in front of the fire in my friend’s beautiful home with the sounds of wind chimes singing in the garden. My friends will be back to claim their home soon and we’ve started planning and renovating a house of our own.
Hubby’s coming too, at his pace and his way. Our plan isn’t perfect; in fact, we are calling it an adventure, not a plan. We trust it will work out and are willing to let it unfold as we go.
Don’t let life pass you by. You’ve been through a lot in the last two years and creating a life you love is worth fighting for. It’s worth getting up every day and taking one small step in that direction, it’s worth believing you too can have change and are worthy of it. And I can promise you when you sit in that life one day it’s worth it.
The world needs more people like you to step into a life of joy, meaning, and creativity that makes your heart sing, and if your heart’s singing you can be guaranteed that the world around you will be affected in the most beautiful way.
2022 is the year to pay close attention to your dreams and not let life just happen to you, instead, make sure YOU guide your life. What’s your heart’s desire?
Never give up on your dreams.
Love and light,